Okay, I've been delaying this for quite some time about the results of that Art War contest I've entered last weekend and here it is.  I didn't win anything, but strangely enough, I'm not that upset about that.  I'm really happy for the winners and for what they have accomplished.  See, the thing is, I'm more upset with myself for one reason: I wasn't even close to finish with my entry piece afterworking on it for nearly 5 hours.

My plan was to do a monochromatic acrylic illustration of Batman and Scarecrow.  I thought I was keeping things simple despite my disadvantage in traditional painting.  But even still and how focused I was within the 5 hour timeframe, I've overstatemented myself when it comes to painting with acrylic.  This was a whole different level of coloring compared to what I do on Photoshop.  You see, I am very keen when it comes to applying detail to my work, and acrylic painting didn't offer me that same versatility (no matter how small my paintbrushes were) as digital painting when it comes to detailed work.  But despite getting started on some detail for my work, I didn't even finish applying the base colors for illustration; I was merely at 75% on that stage before time ran out.

So basically, I am ashamed for my unfinished illustration, and leaving it out there on display like an opened wound.  I'm so ashamed of it, that I don't even want to finish it whenever I'll get it back.  Also, I feel really bad for my pencilled illustration, because I did more harm than good when I covered it up with acrylic.  It just makes me want to never touch a paintbrush ever again (at least for a time-limited competition like that one).  And despite all the encouragement (although sometimes I think that was a misguided use to show pity) I get for my unfinished work, they can never understand my true feelings for I what I have went through on that day.

But you know what?  This was a learning experience I will take to heart.  And if there was another Art War next year, I'll gladly take up that challenge again (if I have time) just to prove myself on what I can accomplish no matter the limits.  To those who send their support for me on my last journal, thank you very much!

- Ford Shipper